harrow..its me again! since all of u are in school.
lately i've been thinking whether what i really want to do is business
i'd always thought business was e only way for me to go cos e whole family does business
but now i know e busines world really is v cut throat and it'll prob force me to be a v cold heartless manipulative cunning person
and i nvr really asked myself what i liked to do apart from it.. its not that i dislike what business is but sometimes i dislike how the business world works
another part of me is scared i'll nvr be as gd as my dad is..and not as strong. i dunno if i will be able to tahan flying to a diff ctry every week. all e hard work in my opinion has made my dad a very hardened person. everything u do must have a concrete goal. u have to rush everything, excel in everything, no time for emotional bs etc etc. i used to think e pressure i put on myself came only from within but now i think maybe my dad had a part to play. at e back of my mind theres always e thought im disappointing him and failing him. when he's working so hard to support e family.
i dunno if i want the life my dad's leading now.. a few days after we're back from indo he's flying off to china for goodness knows how long...did i choose business only cos i have a business to inherit? im scared to ask him if its ok for me not to takeover. or am i just gg crazy