hello guys. i hope u all are doing well cts shld be over soon sorry i havent been updating. i really dread tmr cos we're having club elections. me and the bitch are both fighting for president. i know if i become pres she's gonna hate me and make sure e club doesn succeed. at the same time im really scared myself i wont be able to live up to the trust of the ppl who voted for me. ALAMAK. im really q scared. i think i wld be happier if i knew for sure i WASNT going to be pres. cos i already had other plans like joining psych club or setting up my own club for southeast asians or smth. but the group dynamics are just weird and warped and thats gonna hinder the efficiency of this club. mann headache headache!
currently out of 10 there are 4 def votes for me including my own. then 2 who say they wont vote for the bitch: its either me or another girl whom i dont mind becoming pres. but they might change their minds i donno..if they dont tho it means the most she can get is a tie with me. then how!? ARGH..in a way i feel guilty cos i donno whether i deserve their votes cos i havent exactly been the bestest of friends to them and i donno whether i can reciprocate and i wanna feel grateful and happy and proud of myself but i dont i just feel really bad. whats wrong with me la.
sooo...2pm tmr we're supposed to meet our advisor and hold e elections. wish me luck and that im happy and satisfies with whatever e result is ok??? :)